Seriously, I am starting to feel emotionally tired of all these dramas going around lately. And why can’t they learn from lessons? It’s not the first time it has occurred and yet they are still willing to go for a second shot. Well, I wouldn’t say it’s the second shot anymore. As far as I know, this is most probably the fifth shot! They want me to be the “so-called” devil from hell and I did my best on it. And the people who want me to be the “so-called” devil from hell are trying to be angels from heaven. WTF!
I am so emotionally tired that I feel like giving up already. Some people taught me that it’s best to turn a blind eye on these situations, that way I’ll live better. What’s the point of trying so hard to change everything when they are not making any effort to do so even though they were the ones who wanted you to do it? I was talking to a friend, ranting all my dilemmas and complaints about my current job. Well, like what they taught me. There is nothing I can do now when the people above me aren’t making any effort.
Perhaps, I had been thinking too much and pressurize myself. Or maybe not. *sigh* Don’t even feel like thinking about it. The next thing I hate the most is that people asking people how does the staff treat you after you issue them an “ultimatum”? It’s usual that they hate you to the core. And then they asked you: “How do you feel about it?” Let me tell you what! Why should I bother too much of what staff think of me? Let them think that I am the devil from hell trying to sabotage whatever plans they have. I don’t care! If they don’t like how I deal with them, they are free to go.
Some staffs like to take things for granted. When you were nice to them once, they expect you to be like that forever. They don’t appreciate what they were being given. They think of it as a MUST! Sometimes I wonder how long am I able to endure further? 😦